My post at this time, ofcorse has no meaning, I am almost sure that no one will view it, even no one will feel its presence.
Well, I have no problem to put that post even it has no meaning ( ofcorse it has a meaning to me).
I am feeling very tired , of being away from home, I feel that am wasting my time away from my family, I miss the target of my presence here.
I don't have any target of writing that post, except I feel that I am fully charged with various feelings& all of that feeling are from the type which disturbs any normal person.
Some times I am feeling lost, am in a place which no one is knowing exactly who I am, I don't have any memories with the places & persons around me, every face I meet is totally new to me, in the beginning it was amazing, but now came to be very boring.
After all of the new people I met & staring in each face to try to relate it to one of my memories, I found that I am almost going to forget my self, my person& personality, I feel no presence for me even, same as you are watching a very exciting movie, you live with the events& scenes, but you never be one of the movie characters.
Actually I was trying to convince my self, that I can make my own memories, friends, society, but seems that I failed& all the relationships came to be a big fake, why it came like that ?? what is the problem I had ??
The problem that all the faces UI met were not real, all the people out of their home are wearing false musk, I was wondering I feel I am different, unique some times& I discovered that I am the only one who is walking in the streets with his real face, no musk.
Masks that I met were two types; a mask which is a copy of the real face & the other one was a musk with various shapes different from the true face.
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Hello Ashraf,
Your posts are always quite unexpected in the topics you choose to discuss.
Why do people choose to live away from home? When is the right time for them to return where they feel they belong to?
Do they have to wear a mask to hide or protect their true self?
To me honest, I don't know. I feel that sense of home is what your parents have created for you, this is where you may long to return.
One day, we in our turn, must create that for our children. We can start from scratch, but we can't do it on our own.
Sometimes, I think we can build a home anywhere we feel ourselves, the place does not matter, it's the person we decide to build the home with is of importance.
As fot the mask, it can also be viewed as the protective veil. You protect yourself, not necessarily lose your identity.
Take care, your holiday is soon to come.
ralitza
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